Hi Blogworld
Tonight I am really enjoying my life. My day started off great. I made a pork roast in the crock pot so we would have a good meal without heating up the house. I got a load of laundry started,showered,dressed and tidied our bedroom up before going to work. Work was good. I got to do some extras for my client that will improve her quality of life. This trust is something I have worked so hard to earn. At home afterwards T and I went thru the mail together. I have never enjoyed such domestic bliss. I even like making plates for everyone. T talked while I cleaned up the kitchen. Then we went and folded the laundry together. We are doing everything together and it isn't bugging me! No annoyance and I noticed how I am asking him for his input on little things like what seasonings on the roast. Right now I am sitting at the patio set outside just enjoying the weather. Life is good. I am moving on and enjoying T and the life we are building together.
Jenny
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Family fallout
Hi Blogworld,
Yesterday was a busy day for me. I won a court battle with my ex. And stoothd up for myself to him. No more Jenny the doormat. I sadly ended my relationship with my sister. One sister realizes I am with Teddy for love not money. The other let me know she thinks he should be protected from me. That I made him sell his house and move. And doesn't want me to bring him to her daughter's wedding this summer. I know she thought I was moving in cause I couldn't afford my apartment anymore. But that he needs to be protected from me like I am trying to cheat or steal his money. I am in a position to do that if I wanted to but I wouldn't. I do my best to be as up front and honest with T as I can be. I am looking out for him. Moving in together has had it's ups and downs. But I see myself trusting and turning over more decisions to T. Last night I realized my sister thought I was a gold digger. That has hurt me so badly. I was devestated that she could think that of me. I have always looked up to her and tried to earn her approval. Well no more. Years ago when I went thru my divorce I lost my house to forclosure. Later on she told me how disappointed she was in me over that. But when I explained how the payments would have been to keep it she understood and agreed with my decision. Now she is judging me again without all the facts. But I don't think she will ever get the chance to change her mind. I just want her out of my life forever. No more jumping thru hoops for her approval. T told he thinks she might be jealous. I am making my dreams come true. I am so happy to be here with T. Our home is a peaceful place full of love. My man makes me feel beautiful and desireable, intelligent,and wanted. I feel that I fit, I belong. Last night after I finished crying I told T that I know we don't have 50 years together to look forward to but I want to enjoy everyday I have with him. I have been getting bossy about candy. T is diabetic. I asked him to please not have it. It took me 45 years to find him and I want every day I can get with him. I love him with all my heart.
Jenny
Yesterday was a busy day for me. I won a court battle with my ex. And stoothd up for myself to him. No more Jenny the doormat. I sadly ended my relationship with my sister. One sister realizes I am with Teddy for love not money. The other let me know she thinks he should be protected from me. That I made him sell his house and move. And doesn't want me to bring him to her daughter's wedding this summer. I know she thought I was moving in cause I couldn't afford my apartment anymore. But that he needs to be protected from me like I am trying to cheat or steal his money. I am in a position to do that if I wanted to but I wouldn't. I do my best to be as up front and honest with T as I can be. I am looking out for him. Moving in together has had it's ups and downs. But I see myself trusting and turning over more decisions to T. Last night I realized my sister thought I was a gold digger. That has hurt me so badly. I was devestated that she could think that of me. I have always looked up to her and tried to earn her approval. Well no more. Years ago when I went thru my divorce I lost my house to forclosure. Later on she told me how disappointed she was in me over that. But when I explained how the payments would have been to keep it she understood and agreed with my decision. Now she is judging me again without all the facts. But I don't think she will ever get the chance to change her mind. I just want her out of my life forever. No more jumping thru hoops for her approval. T told he thinks she might be jealous. I am making my dreams come true. I am so happy to be here with T. Our home is a peaceful place full of love. My man makes me feel beautiful and desireable, intelligent,and wanted. I feel that I fit, I belong. Last night after I finished crying I told T that I know we don't have 50 years together to look forward to but I want to enjoy everyday I have with him. I have been getting bossy about candy. T is diabetic. I asked him to please not have it. It took me 45 years to find him and I want every day I can get with him. I love him with all my heart.
Jenny
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
Well I am learning
Hello Blogworld
I have moved in with T. I am struggling in some ways and in others have never been happier. I have not been with a man 24/7 in 17 years. T likes togetherness. I am used to my space. Especially in the morning. He is too helpful. Wants to be in the bathroom while I am washing my face and brushing my teeth. Open the sugar for my tea. It should be sweet. I am finding it annoying. I have apologized and talked to him about how I feel akward with him watching me. The man doesn't miss a thing. He has actually talked about spanking me. I didn't say a word he just said if I didn't stop trying to control him He would spank my butt. I didn't object to it just tried to let him know my intentions. T is diabetic and I get aggressive about him not eating sugar. I mean well. I want him alive. But I see myself also pushing him, having a temper tantrum to get my own way according to him. I just wanted him to see my point of view and hear me. I was not feeling heard. And I want to see if he would follow thru but don't want to deserve that. Does that make sense?
Jenny
I have moved in with T. I am struggling in some ways and in others have never been happier. I have not been with a man 24/7 in 17 years. T likes togetherness. I am used to my space. Especially in the morning. He is too helpful. Wants to be in the bathroom while I am washing my face and brushing my teeth. Open the sugar for my tea. It should be sweet. I am finding it annoying. I have apologized and talked to him about how I feel akward with him watching me. The man doesn't miss a thing. He has actually talked about spanking me. I didn't say a word he just said if I didn't stop trying to control him He would spank my butt. I didn't object to it just tried to let him know my intentions. T is diabetic and I get aggressive about him not eating sugar. I mean well. I want him alive. But I see myself also pushing him, having a temper tantrum to get my own way according to him. I just wanted him to see my point of view and hear me. I was not feeling heard. And I want to see if he would follow thru but don't want to deserve that. Does that make sense?
Jenny
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