Hi Blogworld
Thursday I finally told my sister about T. I knew she knew. But she claims to have found out from a different source than I thought. I basically got the reaction I was expecting Disapproval based on the age difference and the fact that T drinks. It hurts that both my sisters think I am with T because of financial reasons. I know neither is in possession of all the facts. In preparing to have the talk I have done a lot of soul searching. I am with T because I love him. I love him because o.f how he makes me feel secure and accepted. I tried to explain that to my sister. But it's hard when I was also trying not to come out and say how I feel rejected by my entire family her included. I don't want to start up a big argument or fight. I don't want to hurt anyones feelings. I feel like an outside in my family. It feels like everyone is waiting for me to screw up again. I feel like I have disappointed everyone my entire life. I know 2 years ago one sister had a fathers day party and the other sister came with her grown children. I was not invited,I happened to drive by going to a friends house and seen everyone hanging out in the yard and the cars out in front. Later on I dropped by other sisters house and casually asked about how she celebrated the day and was lied to. I have never confronted either sister about it. I don't see the point. It won't fix anything. But moving away with T gets me away from that happening again. I am close enough to come if I want or stay away saying I don't want to drive so far. It gives me the power to let them in only as close as I want them to be. I should also say there is a big age difference between my sisters and me. They are old enough to be my mother. That plays a part in all this I am sure. I am really trying to be fair here.
Good new is that my younger son and I spent the weekend with T. Dear Son(Ds) loved his new bedroom and is really looking forward to the move. I got to cook dinner Saturday night. I love my kitchen. Being there just seems to take a load of stress off my back. I love relaxing in my recliner and the place just has so much more room than my apartment. I can't wait to move. That is it for now I need to get back to working on my apartment.
Thanks for all the comments
Jenny
Jenny,
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that your family is not being supportive. I'd have to go back and read your other posts to get the whole picture, but I do understand the hurt in feeling misunderstood.
You sound happy with the decisions you have made. As long as you know them to be sound, take solace in that. Happy packing!
Thanks Susie.
ReplyDeleteI am happy. I am really learning alot about myself. Hopefully they will learn to accept my decision. Life doesn't work according to their plans. God is leading and I follow Him
Jenny